Murmurs,groans,utterances.
At times it seems that even the Holy Spirit can't relay what I am feeling.
Frustration?
A sense of being overwhelmed?
Maybe I am just bored.
Stuck in a rut.
Land-locked.
Or maybe I am feeling the pain of my friend.
I wrote to you all a few posts ago about some of my friends going through tough times and there are moments where Joy is prevalent and other moments when a sorrowful tide is washing away that Joy.
It pains me to see my friends this way and in particular one very special friend.
She is going through a tough divorce (they're all tough) and I pray that she comes out "...shinning like gold but better". On top of the divorce she has other stuff going on and although she is strong I know that she is really hurting.I know because I have been there and maybe that is why she is on my heart,in my thoughts,and in my prayers so much.
I try to make it a point to let her know that even though it seems so incredibly dark right now,that she will see that light at the dawn.That Northern Star that announces the day with a radiance that is unsurpassed by even the heaviest of novas.I tell her that she is loved by many people and that we will be here for her.I know,that is a somewhat shallow comfort when you are alone at night with only your thoughts to ebb away at twilight's impending arrival.Those were the hardest times for me as well.
I remember Max staying up very late with me,talking,praying,comforting me the way only a good friend and incredible brother can.That was so instrumental to my spiritual and mental health.
So as you can see this situation with my friend is not easy.It does bring to the surface some bad memories.Not that it is affecting me directly in terms of reliving my own divorce,but knowing what she is going through and how alone she feels at times is so hard to watch.
What else can I do? I am there for her in prayer,as a shoulder to cry on,as a fellow "veteran",as a friend.
Chris and I talk about this alot.God,she is wonderful and such a beautiful friend!I can bounce anything off of Chris and I am always sure to get an honest answer and the most incredible support.I am blessed beyond what I am worth.
So,please pray for my friend that she finds Joy again,that she finds companionship when the time is right,that her health gets better,that her whole situation will one day be a shinning diamond that she can look at and reap untold experiences from that will allow her to enjoy whatever God has planned for her in a truly cosmic fashion that only our Lord can accomplish.
Laters my familia....
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Juan
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How beautiful is the heart, ear, shoulder of a friend and brother who is there with almost a speechless and helpless kind of love that I think God puts in us 'cause of an understanding that comes from past pain. A beauty for ashes kind of thing. At the time of feeling lost in the dark like it will never go away it's hard to believe that God will ever make something beautiful from it sometimes. How precious is a friend like you are...like Max is...and like Chris. The jewels of Jesus. I promise to do what I can by praying. Thanks for sharing your heart.....No.CaliMom
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